Poems

Oh grief

Even when it’s not yours to own grief is heavy It sits on the edges of days Pulling and gasping for more air than you’ve got It pushes in on the edges of thoughts Twisting around, spiralling down, taking them all with it It does it so often that you begin to believe this is …

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The next step

It’s there. The stirring of new things, the forming of whatever is next. It’s slow, and soft; barely obvious to the unobservant eye. But I can feel it. πŸƒ It’s there. The flutter of an idea that I can’t quite grab. The suggestion of what could be, what will be. It all but disappears, except …

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I’m leaving home

I’ve recently moved church. For most, this isn’t a big deal. But for me, it is. My church has been the most consistent thing in my life these past 16 years, second only to my family. I’ve been there since I was 12. In that time I’ve completed primary school, high school, two uni degrees, …

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Disappointed me

Disappointment came hard and fast back when I lost that job opportunity. It wasn’t just any old job. It was connected to a country, a cause and a people I loved and thought were my future. The disappointment was like a rock lodged in my throat that I couldn’t swallow. But time moved on, and …

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Wide open spacious life

life

Last year I shattered my time into a thousand pieces and then I handed it out as if I were giving away free tickets to a show. I filled up every space, nook and cranny with an action, big or small. My time was cheap, because I’d made it that way. So I spent all …

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Imposter, who?

I have to squash the cry of that part of me that rebels against the rest of me. The part that wants to see me small, and smaller still. It’s the Amy that is meek and mild, the Amy that can’t move for fear of wrong turns, the Amy that doesn’t speak up for what …

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A new year

And so a new year begins. It starts with a start and pulls me into it body and heart. This year of fresh eyes, new things, and all the time in a year is waiting for me to take the first step. It doesn’t have anything to be sorry for yet. It is innocence. It …

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Child of light

child of light

Oh child of light. We’ve been waiting all our days for a hope like yours that burns bright, tastes sweet and fills us for the days to come. You entered in chaos, a world on its knees, the earth creaking with hurt, a people stumbling around in darkness. We were waiting, we’ve been waiting all …

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Who are you, at the heart of you?

personal development

I recently did a whiteboard session with a skilled mindset coach and he got me to do one exercise that was harder than all the rest. It wasn’t writing down my strengths and weaknesses, it wasn’t unpicking my thoughts, it wasn’t even gathering honest feedback from those closest to me. He asked me toΒ write a …

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